Journal over fear

Fear is a big word for its actual size.  I personally think that girls fear me the most.  When I talk to a girl I am always afraid of making her mad and getting slapped.  Even though I am always nice to girls and dont make them mad, nor have I ever been slapped before.  Its just, in the movies girls always slap the boy so hard and it sounds like it hurts so bad.  I fear many other things than girls though including heights, teachers, and growing up.  I have hated or feared heights since I was a little kid and dont think I will ever get over it.  I also fear teachers for the extra stress they can add to my life by assigning homework.  They can do so much damage by just a little bit.  The homework can make or break my day and night and that is a fear of mine.  Besides these little fears I have here and there the one that is by far the worst is growing up.  I am so afraid of going off to college and being on my own trying to survive.  I will be so excited and am ready to go and experience college, but it scares me so much to not have my mom with me if I need her.  It use to be a lot worse for people that didnt have cell phones or the internet, but now I can skype her every night if I wanted to.  I am scared having to worry about doing my own laundry and being diciplined enough to keep up with it.  Im also afraid of being responsible for myself financially and other sorts.  I dont want to have to pay bills and for my food, and I want to be able to be a kid for forever.  A kids life is so simple and always cheerful but in reality life isnt that way and sad things happen all the time.